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Dear my body,

Here I bestow an official apology for all the things I put you through.

The spirits, substances and so-called foods that you are forced to consume and digest against your will.
For every last hormone-changing pill.
For every time I slide a razor across your tender skin to cut back hair again and again.
For every time I deprive you of sleep when you are already so deprived of energy. And then the days when I refuse to get out of bed and so you miss the sunlight.
I apologise for wanting to hurt you when I'm in need of emotional rehabilitation.
For biting the skin on your fingers when I'm nervous.
For previously feeding you the carcasses of once living beings even when deep down I felt it was wrong to do so.
I'm sorry for putting you in such danger of hearing damage - through all the times I listen to my iPod with the music blaring loudly through my earphones, and the times I spend at the front rows of concerts, the speakers so powerful I can feel the vibrations running through my feet.
I'm sorry for allowing a certain enemy to hold you so tightly, eventually causing much emotional damage and then resulting in physical deterioration.
I'm sorry for denying you of food when I'm upset, then feeding you too much of the wrong thing soon afterwards.
I'm sorry for hating most of you, even when I'm told that I should be grateful for you.
I'm sorry for drying out your hair with bleach because I hate your natural colour.
I'm sorry for making your eyes sore from using makeup and then rubbing it off aggressively at night.
I'm sorry for rubbing your feet raw from breaking in a new pair of shoes.
I'm sorry for constantly giving you papercuts from studying.
I'm sorry for constantly cursing your eyes because they are not even and your teeth because they are not straight.

But now I know that although you are not perfect, you are brilliant.
Brilliant for fighting off diseases, healing cuts and grazes and digesting food whilst I am busy hating how you look.
You are brilliant for keeping strong and surviving through physical danger and emotional distress.

Because how I looked wasn't important when I was in that car crash.
And how I looked wasn't important when I was exposed to those dangerous chemicals a few hours ago. Whilst I was running downtown to check that my parents weren't involved in that explosion, I finally realised that I take my own body for granted. If I was on that one road a few hours ago, my appearance wouldn't have mattered because I would have ceased to exist.

I take my body for granted and I wish that my body was different, but it is everything that I need. So I'll try my best to keep you healthy, and I'll try my best not to obsess over any minor imperfections that I am usually so eager to criticize.
I love you, body.

You are strong, you are brilliant and you are finally appreciated.
Here is the link to an article about the explosion that happened very recently: [link]

The explosion is what really inspired me to write this poem. From the view on my road, it looked like the explosion took place in the building where my parents work, and so I was extremely worried. I ran downtown to check that it wasn't the same building, and thank god it wasn't, and my parents were fine. There were no casualties, although it's been confirmed that there was definitely asbestos.
When I got downtown, there were helicopters telling everyone to stay indoors and close all windows. This is what really frightened me, showing how serious the situation was. I realised that I wouldn't know what to do if I had lost my parents, and these things really do happen. And then I realised that I could be in danger myself. It really made me think about how I treat my body; the things I put it through and how I see it. This experience made me so much more grateful for the body I have, and I would like to share this with you all.
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akinathoklen Jun 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I needed this, Thank you.
Amazing, inspirational poem.
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shehrozeameen Jun 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Honestly speaking, your poem itself is a very strong, very fluid, and a very concise message. it is meant for all of us to consider, particularly those who do not fully understand the extent to which they are pushing themselves to the way they do.

Accidents and such miracles and fated occurrences are what help in making our world a better place - because they bring us back to reality and remind us of something much greater than what we can ever imagine. That is important, and that is why we are here now, finding ourselves devoted to the acceptance of what is truly the best thing about being human - being alive, for who and to whom, doesn't matter. What matters is the acknowledgement of this realization.

And that is what you have covered in this poem. Its good. I feel that the overall presentation works well. There isn't anything in it which would require any... extra help, so to speak. Which makes this work very productive.
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Anj3lla May 22, 2013   General Artist
Wow...such impact. :clap:
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Lady---Vengeance May 24, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you :bow:
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Anj3lla May 24, 2013   General Artist
You're welcome. :heart:
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Well, I'm extremely glad you could have such an epiphany (and at such a young age!), although it's quite stark and sad what triggered it. I don't think most people ever reach such a view in the course of their entire life. ^^; While I do have a healthy amount of love and fascination for my body, mind, and spirit, my body usually gets the least amount of praise... =/ Where your body is regenerative, mine is deteriorative. Where your brain may grow and improve, mine seems to only worsen with time. Admittedly, most of this is just me kidding myself, because I'm sure that many, many of my own actions made my body this bad off, but in my defence, my body started it. xD Still, where my body may have provoked, I acted. This is all why I like my mind and spirit (making sure to separate mind from body.) My mind continues to grow, while my brain seems to deteriorate. My spirit seems to flourish where my body rots. And my mind and spirit together can make me strangely optimistic, when every part of my body tries to tear me down. But I seek to bring unity and balance to all my mind, body, and spirit, and not simply focus on the two I currently favor most and leave my body behind. They're inevitably linked, so if my body falls, the rest are liable to fall with it.
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tommerch May 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is very beautiful and moving. And so, so all too necessary a reminder to oneself.

I'm mostly here for the naughty bits, but every once in a while, it is good to get caught up into something that is very much more than that.

Thos. Merchant
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reedymanedkelpie May 18, 2013  Professional General Artist
Yes, our bodies, our lives, are amazing, things to be grateful for, to make the most of, to treat wth kindness, to celebrate and enjoy.
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Lady---Vengeance May 20, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Indeed they are :)
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diarynaruto21 May 16, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
your body is happy-crying right now with gratitude :happycry:
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