Nightmares

I don't want to fall asleep
I can't bare to close my eyes
I can't stand what's inside my head
Be it made of truth or lies

'Cause when I fall asleep
The nightmares take place
The worst things I can imagine
Scarier than any screaming face

In my dreams
I see you there
But you're hurting me on purpose
And you don't seem to care

I see you with other girls
And you look so happy
And I'm stood there screaming
Telling you it should be me

But you're not listening
You're too busy having fun
I can't get away from what I'm seeing
No matter how much I try to run

I'm seeing you with girlfriends
I've never even heard of
Telling them they're beautiful
As I start to sob

Then I wake up in the dark
And I'm lying here alone
With no one here to comfort me
Just me on my own

You may think the worst part is over
But it's only just begun
'Cause when I go back to sleep
I know I'll have another one

Nightmares that leave me crying
When I wake up in bed
Wishing every night
That they would stay out my head

But I know that tomorrow
They could be even worse
So I try to forget about
This self-inflicted curse

I know that the nightmares aren't real
At least not for now
But how long do I have
And will I find out how?

I dread the day I see him with someone else
More than almost anything
He'll be happy without me there
And I'll be stood here wondering

...Why isn't that me?